.. if you’re someone who knows the worst thing can happen at any time , aren’t you also someone who knows the best thing can happen at any time too? “

Lennie lost her elder sister, Bailey recently and now she is having difficulty dealing with it. She doesn’t want to let her sister’s memories go. Making mistakes and falling in love when she doesn’t want to, she writes notes to Bailey about the past and the present. And as the story progresses, she discovers secrets Bailey and her family have been keeping from her .

I don’t believe time heals. I don’t want it to. If I heal, doesn’t that mean I’ve accepted the world without her?”

In one dimension the story seems to be about a girl learning to live a life dealing with tragedy, love and teenage drama. But as the story progresses, I realised that it is much more. This YA Lit story delves into abandonment issues and imagery of various forms of grief. But it also gives moments of love and laughs. The book throughout has underlying currents of first love and first loss. This book is not about moving on from the grief but surviving with it .

“The sky is everywhere, it begins at your feet.”

I picked up this book because I’ll Give You the Sun by the same author is one of my all -time favourites. Another reason would be Lennie. Yes, this book has kooky characters like Gram and Uncle Big, funny heartthrob Joe Fontaine, laconic and seductive Toby and weird best friend Sarah. But the book is Lennie and she is the reason why Bailey lives on. And while searching for ways to keep Bailey alive, she finds herself beyond the Wuthering Heights obsessed-Clarinet Playing Romantic.

“I always imagined music trapped inside my clarinet, not trapped inside of me.

But what if music is what escapes when a heart breaks?”

My favourite things about this book is Lennie’s notes. She writes these notes Littering the tiny town of Clover with beautiful words. I loved this book. I totally believe in reading right book at the right time theory and this book was lucky in that way. This book made me giggle and cry and feel the emotions. It is filled with quotable sentences and gives hope that everything will work itself out. If you like young adult-coming of age stories, angsty grief and hopeless romantic love, read this book. If you like kooky elements and love triangles, read this book. If you have felt a destructive sorrow rushing through you like a flooded river, read this book. I could relate myself as that sad girl, scattering poems around the town, searching for the sky, So I read the book.

That’s exactly it—I am crazy sad, and somewhere deep inside, all I want is to fly.”